Thursday, June 12, 2014

dreaming big, working hard..

There was a time, i was failing
constantly, and not briefly
with no one to help, none bothering,
trying to understand me,
my feelings, my pain.

Maybe i wasn't working hard,
or not being dedicated or disciplined;
that's what was on everyone's lips to discard
me, my questionnaire, my hard to maintain grin.

But still believing my own rational judgement
to go on and on,
I pushed up to the limit
to fulfill the dreams that i own;

the dreams that were sown,
that were grown
mindlessly without much effort;
for the child was unaware of the discomfort
that it would gift
to me, my drift, my night-shift.

But it's okay to have such dream
that can shove you out of your zone
and fill you with talent to the brim,
to show the world the skills you honed.

So what if I didn't get that one,
plenty of them still reside in me
and gauging my drastic run,
I can make my shortcomings flee.

Now being dedicated, motivated, staunched, all in a row
I do know
which door to knock
when I am deadlock!


Monday, May 19, 2014

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

my laziness..

Friday, May 9, 2014

Review of "Nothing Lasts Forever" by Sidney Sheldon

Well, all thanks to this novel for it added all the necessary ingredients to make my trip back home an awesome one and yep thanks to my dear friend too who suggested it to me. It was my first novel of Sidney Sheldon and ye i loved the story telling and i am already on my way for his second novel "If Tomorrow Comes" and i am sure i would love this one too.

The story has many things in it, ranging from male dominance to how bad someone's greed can be, to how hard a doctor's life is. Starting with that of male dominance, i can say that it's not of that level as described in the book knowing the fact that the book was published in 1994. Ofcourse things would have been like that only in those days. But you just can't ignore it for the present society because that stupid dominance still does exist (and more than that it's the sexist comments people do make or harass women in some way or the other)  and we all can feel it, the only thing being that the level has gone down with time, thanks to the determined efforts of the women as well as the awareness that is spreading in the society.

Then i was also lost in my thoughts while reading the daily schedule of a doctor as was described. I can for sure take some lessons from that but at the same time, such a scenario still does exist in government hospitals and that's very dangerous from two points. Firstly most of the good doctors want a good payment, so why would they work for govt. hospitals where the load is too much, when instead  they can work for private hospitals or set up their own private practice and live a luxurious life thereafter. And then you are left with doctors like Arthur Kane who can operate on your good kidney leaving you on dialysis forever.
Secondly, when a doctor works for such long hours,  he/she is surely to feel frustrated and this is not good for it leaves no time for themselves or their families and this might lead to some disastrous results as was the case with Tom Chang.

It was also inspiring to read of the childhood of Paige and especially of her father. It's natural to me to feel inspired when i read of someone like him. Even though he was a fictional character, people like him do exist and they do motivate us to do some good for the society. Then the childhood of Honey do show us the pressure of performing well in a brainy family. But it does give an insight to the case of honey traps which is surely not a good thing at all, whatever case it may be. This led to the wrong diagnosis of her patients, however we cannot blame Honey for it. A large share goes to her parents who never respected her feelings and this surely gives us the lesson that every child is born different and you can never pressurise  them for something they don't want to become, and their feelings need to be respected and they should not be mocked for their ideas for they would then never share anything with you.

Then there are people like Kat who never lived their childhood, rather it was some kind of horror for them.The words of her aunt were truly inspiring. "You can keep running and hiding and blaming the world for your problems ,or you can stand up for yourself and decide to be somebody important by knowing that you're important. First you get an image in your mind of who you want to be, child, and what you want to be. And then you go to work, becoming that person."

Not to forget Barker. People like him do exist whom we hate so much that we always wish something bad for them or atleast wish to get rid of them, the reason being their cold and arrogant nature towards us. But these are the people who want something good for us and are always there to extend their helping hand.
There were many other characters like that of Ken, who could even kill someone for his greed or Alfred, whose work didn't surprise me that much for that can happen with anyone given the circumstances.

Then, what about the title of the novel NOTHING LASTS FOREVER... I was thinking of it and the sense that it made to me was that all the three of female doctors had to go through different phases of joy and sorrow in their lives and may be that's what life is all about. Nothing is permanent out there. And if extended further, the same can be said for the relationships that we do share with different people throughout our life.

And finally the person of the novel. It's difficult one to choose,but I am more inclined towards Paige Taylor than anyone else for all her characteristics that Sheldon has shown to us. Overall a marvelous storytelling and looking forward to read more novels of him!

Saturday, March 1, 2014

entangled within..

entangled within my own thoughts,
trying hard to read the scribblings on the wall
asking myself what am i learning
or am i learning something even..
is this what they call education ??

feeling afraid that my mind won't have an answer for this
i posed this enigma of mine to him
out of curiosity.
but thankfully he did have an answer
So he asked me with a breath of warmth
are you in some hurry ?
I said- "No, but what's the matter";
"Well you seem to be in some hurry,
 as if you need to catch any ferry..
 Remember-learning is a life long process
 it's less of a destination and more of a journey,
 a journey of exploration,
 some kind of quest for knowledge"

Seeing me all confused, he asked what happened..
i could barely speak but then told him in a bit low tone
that it all seems scrambled,
for my teachers use to tell me i am not good at learning
as i don't get good marks like others..
so i probably thought learning was about marks and appreciation
but now you say it's some kind of exploration..

My mind gave me a superb smile
and advised me not to worry about it,
for those are the foolish men who think only a little bit,
these are the ones bcoz of whom it took Galileo
so many years to come,
and forced genius Einstein to feel as a child
as if he was a failure..

"These are the ones who feel proud
 to remain as parrot, and
 not evolve as a human..
 it's bcoz of them that our education system sucks to this extent,
 but now i want you to buck whatsoever it offend..
 Think of yours as an interesting voyage,
 which may be disturbed by a few storms
 setting up all this stupid norms..
 show them all how education is taught,
 and don't forget to help others, like you, out"

After all this, i felt some sense of change,
some kind of happiness all around me
and seemed as if the scribbling on the wall
became a lot more clear..
Well, it was just written out there-
" follow your passion
  and be a bit more curious about your surroundings
  for this is what learning is in real sense..."

Monday, February 3, 2014

Is our nationalistic identity being threatened by globalisation ??

I don't know what's bad if you are being given the choice to select between various items, so that you can purchase what you like , and more importantly what you want.

Consider a case where there is the only telecom service of BSNL and they are giving you the only option of a particular recharge.What your feeling would be like ?? =D .. or considering a more serious situation, there is an outbreak of a disease in your country and the require medicine cum technology is not available there. WHAT THEN?? 

Globalisation is in no way a kind of threat to our nationalistic identity. And what kind of national identity are we talking about ? Where no one knows you or would you like that people around the world know you, your work and appreciate you for that, and more importantly people get a positive thinking of your country.
Take the case of Reliance and Tata from India. They made it worldwide because of globalisation only and they are competing at their best making it sure that India holds a name in the chart.

And asking you, the reader only, what situation of the country would you like to be? Where people die of diseases and no one is out there to help them.. or people live a peaceful and disease free healthy life.And if someone is thinking of the second option, then he or she is surely in support of globalisation.
Globalisation has made the medicine available worldwide. It has helped improve the communication technologies, which make it easier to alert the relevant authorities to the outbreak of a particular disease. Disease control capacity in one part of the globe can readily be deployed to fight diseases in other parts of the world.

And one more thing, globalisation has helped us to know so many different cultures and mix with them. So many cultures and languages would have died had globalisation not been there. Take the example of  one of the primitive languages from our own country - SANSKRIT. Only a few people, excluding those who perform all the ritual kind of things, have the knowledge of this beautiful language. And they have not done anything, except a few, to spread it around the world. It is the people from the west only who are eager to know about it and they are the ones who are spreading it in the west. AND the case is not just of this language, I can take the examples of Ayurveda and Yoga too. If I go a bit further, countries like Britain and US are taking Ayurveda more seriously than our own country where it originated. And the thing is globalisation is not just spreading a language or a culture or technology, it is also helping to improve it to a good extent.

But then people go out to blame globalisation for the falling of a particular currency against dollar. So speaking of my own country, FDI has not yet been implemented to that good extent in India and the fall of Indian Rupee is not because of globalisation but due to the inefficiency of the ruling Congress government at present, which is otherwise also gonna be thrashed out in the coming up 2014 Lok Sabha elections. While the growth rate of India ,in general, is not that good, Gujarat has shown high growth rate in the same situation and NaMo is someone who is whole-heartedly in favour of sustainable globalisation and he has shown it with his governance and still not a single person in the state has lost his/her identity.Instead they are proud to belong to such a state. So loss of nationalistic identity is nowhere threatened by globalisation.

Coming to the next point, people often relate BRAIN DRAIN  with globalisation. But the case is not so.
We all know of Srinivasa Ramanujan. Had Hardy not been there, his ideas would not have spread all around the world. But that doesn't happen to everyone in the modern society. Do you want the great ideas of someone being wasted just because he is not allowed to work with like-minded people.
There are so many Indians working at CERN. Would you call it a brain drain? No.not at all ! It just shows the world what all talents do we possess and that's a good thing.
Rather there has been a process of reverse brain drain in the past few years. People of Indian origin around the world are coming back and that too with all the great experience and talent of theirs. Think of that students won't need to go to other countries for their higher studies (the improvement for this is already on the surge) or patients no more need to go anywhere else for their treatment. Isn't that great ?

So, if someone says that our nationalistic identity is being lost by globalisation, i can't help but think of some innocent child saying he won't compete or give the exams for he isn't still prepared, knowing in the heart that he would eventually fail because he knows too less and that he didn't put up all those efforts. GOOD LUCK to him then because he is neither going to learn something in that case, nor improve himself.. But then we can't let him go this way. He will be made to face the competition a few times, chances are pretty good that he will fail a few times, but then he will gradually learn to survive and not just survive but to make his mark, to make a point to this harsh society that it was never that he lacked imagination or creativity, it was just insufficient efforts on his part.. and now as he is having that, HE IS ALREADY ON THE WAY TO MARK HIS REAL IDENTITY!!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

my first blogpost

Everything that improves your depth of knowledge, width of studies and a free and fearless approach with the humility of a learner will stand by you in the long run. A critical approach means studying anything seriously.